Alone but not lonely

Even if my father and mother abandon me, the Lord will hold me close. Psalm 27: 10 (NLT)

A few years ago, I was faced with financial struggles. It was so difficult that I could not afford to pay my rent. After owing my landlord about five months’ rent I decided enough was enough; I was going to pay her off and move out. While I worked on this plan, I started looking around for a place to stay. With no money, my options were very limited so I asked a few friends if I could stay with them for a while; however, they were not able to assist me. My last option was to ask my mom; certainly, she would not turn her back on her child

Well, I was in for a surprise, my mom said she needed to think about it. Then, after a few days, she told me that she thought it would be best if I did not move in with her. She shared that earlier in her life she experienced similar challenges and she was able to overcome them. Therefore, I needed to learn how to navigate these waters. A wave of emotions flooded me – shock, hurt, anger, and disappointment. It took me a while to get through these emotions.

After some time, I remembered Psalm 27:10 and I was comforted that even though I felt all alone I was not lonely. The Lord was with me and he was also holding me close. I thought about my mom's decision and I realized that although in my eyes, she had abandoned me at a time when I needed her most; she was only doing what she thought was best.